POETRY; 'I Don't Want To'

'I Don't Want To  '

I don't want to live in pain no more,
I don't want to face another day,
I don't have the strength to fight on anymore,
I hope you don't blame me, when I do not stay.
For you I will go on,
For just one more day,
One more day...

-R.C. Cardenas
12/31/15

POETRY; A Sea

'A Sea'

These words,
They run through me,
As a babbling brook,
Flowing down from torrents of rivers,
Passing time,
Originating.
See thy very depths?
From endless abysses they carry on,
Taking me to such pages of bliss,
Flowing down the rivers and streams,
Onto the fathomless oceans of thee.
Even lakes will enter into that vast sea.
A sea that lives through me.
It lives through me.

09/04/15
R. C. Cardenas

Another song idea, I wrote this one for my Husband...

(Song Idea)
'If I Should Fade'

If I should fade,
I want you to be....
The one who is holding me,
The one who sets me free.

Stay strong and move along,
Don't fret and have regrets,
Sit and cry,
And wonder WHY!

If I should fade,
I want you to be...
The one who is holding me,
The one who sets me free.

Don't sit still and cry over me,
Stay close to the ones that we love the most,
I know I died but promise me...
You'll take a day to turn back time and remember me,

Remember me...

If I should go, don't let me go until you know...
You are the one that touched my sky,
Your the one I'll love until my last sigh,
Even then I hold on to you,
With all that I am,
My heart, my soul,
My love won't let go,
I won't ever let go.

If I can't stay and fade away,
Remember me,
My heart and my soul.
I won't let go,
Your all I ever wanted to know.

So if I should stop and fade away,
I want you to be the one who's holding me...
Your the one who has to let go.
If it's my time don't be sad for me,
Dry your eyes, never weep for me,
My love will always be where I want it to be,
You, in your heart, forever for me.

My love will never let go,
Never let go,
My love I will never let you go,
Forever your a part of me.

So just let me go, just don't forget about me.
How you were my heart,
My heart and my soul,

I love you with all my heart and soul.
All of my soul,
Some day you'll come back to me,
For now only look back to LIVE for me.
I would want that for me.
For you to BE.

If I should fade,
I want you to be...
The one who is holding me,
The one who sets me free.

-rcc
08/01/15

Another idea for a song I have... and unedited because I am special that way.

(Song Idea)
'No More'

Every time I look in the mirror I see the young girl I was before...
These days from my past,
I keep hoping all the good memories just last,
No more hurt,
No more pain,
Why oh why do you keep driving me insane?
No more hurt,
No more pain,
Fuck this moment....
It won't last.
This moment...
It won't last!
So why do I see, these young eyes, staring back at me??
I was so innocent,
So naive to see...
All the things you took and took, from me,
You took it all from me.
You just keep taking and breaking.
Your breaking me.

Every time I look in the mirror I see the young girl I was before...
These days from my past,
When the good memories last.
There's no more hurting...
The pain didn't last.
Take a look in my eye's!
Stop telling me lies,
You keep driving me,
It despises me.
You keep driving me,
It despises me.
Driving me,
Driving me insane....
Insane!
Your driving me insane....
Insane!
No more.

01-08-16
R.C. Cardenas