POETRY; I Lie Dying

'I Lie Dying'

The surface rages silently
Cold beneath the floor
Ever needing,
It dies for me,
Slowly,
I scream no more.
Writhing,
I am choking,
I will die for me.
Slowly face down upon the floor,
Oh how my shame cries out for me.
A soul, how it lies bleeding!
Tainted I feel no more
Oh how I wish in vain for thee
Save me from this door!
Once blocked and depraved for me.
Screaming.
Please no more.
I'm dying...
I'm crying!
I am broken you see!?!
You knew I lay stuck upon that floor.
And oh how the depths do weep for me!
Oceans and oceans.
Drowned,
So forlorn,
You took,
You kept,
You trespass against me!
What was sacred and once free.
Now I lie dying.
My soul searches for me!
I will forever lie here,
Never to surface, or be free.
Now you know, my rage!
What has surfaced in me!?
To be FREE!!
To. Be. Free.

R.C. Cardenas
06/27/14

POETRY; Be Aware

"Be Aware"

Aware of yourself , your hopes, your dream.
Aware of yourself , your light, your means.

Be aware of your path and where it will lead.

Be aware of your light, how it shines through.

Choose to see yourself, the good that you bring.

Choose a day for yourself, enjoy what it brings.

Take a look at your heart, how it beats true.

Take pride in your heart, all the love you bring about.

Choose to be aware yourself, take the life you chose.

You and yourself will be all that you choose.

Be aware of your choices, afterall we are what we take... hence choose.

-R. Cardenas

07/25/14

POETRY; Sleepless Nights

"Sleepless Nights"

Sleepless nights so aplenty.
Restless days come, taking.
So many endless days. 
With neither hope for a shining of rays. 
Or even a time with no dismal frays.

Sleepless nights so aplenty.

Restless days come, they take me. 

So many endless days. 

With neither, day after day, after endless day. 

Fills me with dread in an endless way.

Sleepless nights have long since claimed me.
My hopes are all dashed, all I do is await being smashed.
I always have tried, but for naught. 
Terrible dread forever fills me, to the very top. 
Trapped in this abyss. 
Never will I know or have a a hint of any bliss.
Sleepless nights become my norm. 
Following me endlessly. 
Oh, but to mourn. 
To cry out and shutter, as I lost so many dreams.
Denying my soul it's every delight. 
You take and you take.
What is this that I make?

Sleepless nights disrupt my soul.
Consume my being. 
With each and every breathe that I will use. 
Sorrows have long since tried me. 
At what point do I break? 
How long will I last?
It nags at me still, whatever am I to do? 
This, I,  cannot last.
All that is left of me is a shadow of the past.

-rcc 

07/15/14 

POETRY; Take Yourself Away

"Take Yourself Away"

Lie yourself down to sleep, 
Lay your fears to rest, 
Dry those tears without any pain, 
Sing your song without the rain, 
Make love be just enough, 
Wake up to all that is tough, 
Teach yourself to trust another, 

Save yourself from you, 
Take yourself away from this abuse. 

Lie to your heart again, 
Lay all your love at ones feet, 
Dry out the heart, I cannot weep. 
Sing the songs that never end,
Make yourself feel again and again,
Wake up from this endless mess,
Teach yourself about life and all that is spent, 

Save you from these opens wounds, 
Take yourself away from all this abuse. 

Lie to the soul when the heart is so true, 
Lay yourself out to pain after pain, 
Dry all these fears without restrain, 
Sing about such heart ache and all you once knew, 
Make up a new song with all that is new, 
Wake up from this delirium with all that is untrue, 
Teach yourself to wake up and renew, 

Save you from all that is abundantly false, 
Take yourself away from all of this abuse. 

-rcc 
07/15/14